Updated: Jun 26, 2020
Complacency is no longer an option. That is what I thought when I first started having symptoms that led to my cancer diagnosis, this is also the thought I had when the most recent figurative shit hit the fan. Life today would be challenging enough without dealing with significant health issues but unfortunately one cannot schedule these things and so I trudge on, head down with hands protecting the vitals and the chemo pump as the winds of Covid-19 and racial injustice hurl chunks of our crumbling country that was...Ouch! Change hurts but so does growth and pupation, it’s time.
I have not had the easiest life but I have been fortunate. I am grateful for what I have and who I have in my life right now. The biggest thing I have learned from my disease that can help with and be applied to these trying times is to not be ruled by fear. Sounds simple right? I know, easier said than done but you can do this because I did. This is not to say that I can’t have my moments, we are human and spin outs can happen especially if you are any kind of empath and the world is losing its collective mind but I don’t spend the majority of my time worrying about things that I cannot control.
Stress is not ideal for anybody but especially if you are any kind of chronic sick. Unfortunately I cannot control that either so I have to find a way to surf the uncertain, note it and keep going, it has been an interesting year so far for sure. I hate the term “woke” or how it is overused now but I think these times are waking us all up. The quarantine has paused a lot of our lives enough so that we can see the injustice and disparities that are prevalent in our society STILL to this day. It is unfortunate that all of our fellow Americans have not gotten on the same page, that we all can‘t see that we are not so different from each other, that pigment is just variations of color and that all colors are beautiful or at least they can be if they want to be. Nobody deserves to die, be abused or wrongfully incarcerated because they are black, brown or not rich enough.
Now that our eyes are open or opening and we have wiped the sleep away to see a questionable future with a side of apocalypse and potential zombies, we should stay awake for awhile and help navigate the craggy landscape. Perhaps we can even help to make our world different or even way better. Maybe we could start healing in a collective way, us and our world.
All of the worst yet best movies are running through my mind as I write this, I picture Bill Pullman saying the cheesiest yet most uplifting speech as the aliens hover just out of reach but within minutes of being check-mated... Speaking of aliens, did any of you notice that video that was released recently by the Pentagon regarding Navy pilots and UFO’s? Serious question, look it up if you haven’t.
Keeping hanging in there.
Until next time ❤️