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A new hope.



I woke up the other morning and I actually felt normal...Well, normal for me and it gave me hope. My body felt light, there was no pain, heaviness or discomfort and I entertained the notion that my cancer was going away. It was a wonderful thought and one that I am in the minority of believing, at least in regards to my medical team. Don’t get me wrong, I love my western medicine doctors and nurses, they are actually pretty wonderful but they have to go by statistics. My oncologist will tell me “You keep doing what you are doing and let me worry about the treatment. Our job is to keep you alive until there is a cure.” I get where she is coming from, still, I take it as a challenge and hope to surprise her with my amazing recovery, ha! I have always wanted to be special like that, I am sure I am not alone in feeling like this.


I am relieved that Trump will soon no longer be our president, though his continued bad behavior is worrisome, more in the way that he has divided this country so thoroughly rather than him actually remaining in office because he doesn’t know how to take a hint. It is really sad that we were broken enough so that a snake oil salesmen like himself could actually inspire such division. Families have been damaged and friendships ended. People really look towards him as a secret savior of children 😳. These times are just crazy but I am still hopeful that real positive change can happen.

My wound care nurse showed my husband how to locate the tiny holes that were my abscess wounds, we have to start packing them again to try and avoid more surgery or surgical office slice and dice. This is inconvenient but if I can avoid further trauma and scar tissue in my body I will do what I can. I am lucky to have such a wonderful partner and I try to tell him this as much as possible.


That’s all I have today, maybe I will delve deeper next week. I am really excited for my book “Fiona Plays With Her Beaver” to officially publish next week, I am so proud of it! There will be audio available to go along with it too! This project has been really soul nourishing, it is so important to find projects like this for anyone but especially in circumstances like mine.

Until next time ❤️









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