The curse of losing air guitar competitions by a 10th of a point for the last 3 years has been broken... by a lot, ha! Unfortunately not for the better but that is okay. I am just happy I could put together something that I liked and that had meaning for me. I know that sounds weird but my performances have to have some kind of meaning or story that resonates with me in order for me to own them, silly as air guitar is I take it very seriously. Not everyone gets the opportunity to start performing in their 40’s. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought I would do such a thing let alone immerse myself in the community or produce actual shows myself! The last eleven years have been quite challenging but there have been some really cool things that wouldn’t have happened if I had not agreed to do that first contest. So for all the frustration I have felt over the years regarding competitions, it can never outweigh the gratitude I feel for saying yes that first time.
At this moment, despite not moving forward in the competition this year, I feel pretty good! I felt better the last week and a half but today the radiation has caught up to me and I am dragging. Our latest tenant moved out of the apartment, she had been living here for 4 months, so now we are back to cleaning and Airbnb hosting. This is a mixed bag, it’s actually nice to have people stay longer, especially if my health is being a bitch but I am grateful that we have this investment, even when I am struggling with low energy. With radiation the fatigue can last for up to a month so it should be good by my birthday in June.
During the latest spell of feeling good I have been thinking about the possibility of practicing massage again, this is both exciting and scary. I am afraid to attempt working again too soon, I don’t want to deplete myself and end up worse as I have in the past but one day (fingers crossed) I will have to take a chance and see what happens. I have also been considering trying to mosaic again, my energy has been that good lately! When I start feeling good like this then I start feeling overwhelmed with all of the things that I need or want to do which makes me shutdown, nothing is easy.
The crazy fermented soy beverage, Haelan 951, seems to be working, I really believe this drink fortifies and builds up the immune system so the body can handle traditional cancer treatments, the hand and foot rash and itchiness has disappeared since I started drinking this stuff, I am hopeful it will help with deeper healing, you never know.
I am having a hard time focusing my eyes on a screen so I am going to end this here for now. I will attach my round 1 & 2 from the US Air Guitar Western Regional Championships in the event you want to see what I did.
Until next time ❤️ Round 1: